During a recent Reiki distance healing session my consciousness went into orbit and beyond and new awarenesses flooded into my mind akin to a Galactic download, resulting in a deeper explanation of "Reiki" i.e. universal life force energy, which I really want to share with you now.
As we know from Physics lessons in school, energy is never destroyed but rather when it's job is done in one form, it converts to another - so by way of explanation of the insights that I recieved, by the time we're sending and receiving Reiki what has it been before?
My recent interest in the phases of the moon lead me nicely to an interest in Astrology which provided much deeper insights into our cosmos and the effects that the planetary alignments have on all of us, all of the time. In visualising these planets and star constellations, I was reminded that everything is in constant motion - which is kinetic energy. Think of a giant, clockwork mechanism with each part interacting with its neighbour. Chemical is also an energy and there are clouds of chemicals thoughout the cosmos called Nebulas, with constant chemical reactions taking place resulting in explosions, physical formations, gasses combining in differing proportions in a Cosmic Recipe to create a different chemical (think H20 i.e. water = 2 parts Hydrogen, 1 part water) - the cosmos really is a living being!
Now take the fact that each star is actually a sun - like our own - and so generates heat energy. "Gravity" is now a recognised energy - with Earth having a strong gravitation pull to keep us all physically on the ground, whereas the gravitational pull of the moon on our oceans and indeed, on us as living beings is well documented throughout time. So Gravity energy pulls us all together - and when I say "all", I mean every living thing and every planet, star and moon. Take this beyond our own solar system (Pluto, Jupiter, Neptune, Mars, Saturn, Mercury, Uranus, Venus, Earth, the Moon and the Sun .... and the millions of asteroids, comets and meteoroids hurtling through space - and all of their associated energies) and add these extra solar system ingredients to every star that you see in the night sky and you're beginning to see all of the energy that is out there!
So, for the healing energy aspect of Reiki, I believe that all of these aspects of the Universe, combine and convert into the Life Force Energy that is REIKI and which gives every living thing life.
But what of the innate wisdom of Reiki? As Reiki Practitioners we know that whilst we tap into and channel this energy via the body's energy gateways (chakras), it does indeed have its own wisdom and guides our hands to where the healing needs to be focused. However, even if we keep our hands in the same place on our client's body, such as the shoulders, Reiki will find it's way to where it is needed the most - and then expanding on that notion further, it decides whether our client needs healing on an emotional, physical or spiritual plane - and whether that needs to be in the present or the past. As Reiki Practitioners, the more we practice, the more intune we become with the energies and begin to have a two-way understanding of how we can enhance this combined healing effort and we can work with energies within the Reiki energy and invoke these by using symbols and mantras - hmm, yes, it probably does sound far out, but hey, a PlayStation controller uses symbols and colours so where do you think they got the idea from?
So, back to the where does this all seeing, all knowing wisdom come from? Each of us has a mind, a body, a spirit and a soul - yes the last two are different entities. Our soul has mutiple lifetimes and feeds back to the collective consciousness, all that it has learned and experienced during each lifetime. Every lifetime - every animal, every person, and who knows, maybe every plant that has ever existed has uploaded everything that happened during their time on Planet Earth and so there is a wealth of wisdom, knowledge and experiences, including every thought and invention that never got off the ground so to speak. This, I believe, is the Deity if you like - the all seeing, all knowing aspect of Reiki that knows what to do, where to direct the energy and how best to heal this being at this moment in time "for their own greatest and highest good". For those unfamiliar with Reiki - we always ask that the healing energies are "for the client's own greatest and highest good" because we humans have a limited perspective on what is really out there in the much, Much, MUCH greater scheme of things.
So now, let's take a trip a bit further "out there" and remind ourselves that each star is a sun and so it has the potential for supporting life on a neighbouring M Class planet (I'm a StarTrek'y and that's the name for a planet which has an atmosphere capable of supporting humanoid life as we know it Jim!). So, why limit our souls to having only ever having incarnated in previous lifetimes on Planet Earth?! Increasing numbers of Rainbow, Crystal and Indigo children don't feel like Earth is "home" and feel more connected to "somewhere else" and "want to go home" but equally they know that they have a job to do.
So, here's the thing, it's documented within the Mind, Body, Spirit & Soul circles in which we move, that these children are here to save us with the special knowledge that they were born with. I'm saying that their previous incarnations may well have been on planets in a galaxy far far away and they are here with access to higher wisdoms and intuitive gifts to cross fertilise greater awarenesses such as how to live in PEACE and harmony, to respect every living thing (think Animal Rights and our heightened awareness of how animals are transported these days and cared for. Not that long ago, animals were dying in transit because of lack of water and space and were kept in disgraceful conditions. When we practice Reiki we commit to owning the responsibility for our part on this planet and invoking necessary changes. We don't have to go on protest marches because we have the capability of channeling Reiki to situations as well as people. Essentially, this cross fertilisation of soul incarnations is one Fabulous Universal Translator and so there are no language barriers. If we want to dip our toe in the political waters, we could go so far as to say that because of this, we realise that old systems and ways of being no longer work and we're in the middle of a rather dramatic planetary reshuffle on how things are done - education, banking, working from home, financial systems such as over-extending credit cards, loans, mortgages, inflation and high interest rates, pensions, endowment policies; the internet, diet, mindfulness, healthcare - integrative medicine is making good headway and combines "alternative" with western medicine to give us the best of both worlds.
In the 1960's people started asking "why are we here?" - so maybe embrace the very reason that every single individual is here on Planet Earth - to learn unconditional love and heighten our vibration with gratitude and knowing that we're living a respectful life - not to be confused with "respectable". I could go really deep on this but I want to keep to the point, which is - that the higher wisdom aspect of Reiki is the combined knowledge of every soul which has ever incarnated on any planet in The Universe. Couple this with the school text book energies of motion, friction, chemical, heat, gravity, radiant, sound, elastic, electrical (think storms on Earth, Mars and out in space) and more, and Reiki is the most incredible source to tap into for healing, spiritual growth, to become more enlightened and aware of what's really going on and why we're here - TO BECOME MORE CONNECTED ..... and the beauty of Reiki, is that everyone's journey is as individual as their fingerprint because we all have our own lessons to learn and our bodies will tell us all what we need to know through ailments and injuries - but that's a story for another day. You might like to check out my book on Amazon "Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine" by Linda Jane W, which chronicles my journey post-heart hissyfits and then nearly giving up on me, because the insights of WHY I NOW NEEDED TO LISTEN TO MY BODY were not so much about the physical as the emotional causes and they blew my mind! EVERYTHING changed from Point Break! Because I'd been a Holistic Practitioner for about 15 years at that point,I thought I was pretty out there already - Now I appreciate that I had only scratched the surface and I'm now going in deeper and deeper every week and IT'S SOOOOOO EXCITING!
Tapping into all of this energy begins to explain why it's such an incredible healing force of nature - natural and working for you and your own physical and emotional wellbeing thus bringing joy in your life.
If this has sparked your interest and you would like a Reiki Distance Healing session with me, Linda, Holistic & Spiritual Mentor, Practitioner, Oracle Card Reader and Author, then please get in touch by email or whatsApp. Please also check out the other pages on my website for Reiki Distance Healing, Reiki Tuition and more.
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For so many years - until my mid 40's infact - I'd jokingly refer to my makeup as my warpaint and each morning I'd "put on my war paint" oblivious to the implications and roots of this witticism.
Then one fine day whilst I was "putting on my war paint" in preparation for the day ahead, Mindfulness appeared out of nowhere and I was stunned to realise that in the background of my mind, I was also mentally creating and running through arguments, difficult situations, confrontations and areas of potential conflict, just in case they arose during my day, so that I would have the right answers to hand in a nanosecond. I'd had so many incidences of the above during the entire course of my life, that it had become second nature for me to go out there prepared rather than be taken off guard and risk defeat or upset - but it wasn't a conscious thought process!
As my spiritual awareness heightened over the years I realised that in referring to my makeup as war paint and then running through these imaginary arguments in my mind, I was unwittingly attracting all of the above into my daily life. I was sending the message out to The Universe "I am going into battle" and my signals were heard and conflicts in which to be victorious, were duly delivered to me ... my leonine ego and my Viking warrior ancestory was out of control as I craved triumph and recognition for my brilliant handling of the situation. (I might be exaggerating here ... Clearly i still have more work to do on my ego!!!)
Once I realised this, I changed the terminology to "face paint" - much better, much more zen and my heavy heart lightened it as I started my days as if going onto stage to entertain myself and others. To be the centre of attraction as any self-respecting Leo can't help but be (ego alert!!! Hahaha), light and amusing and attract fun instead of battles. This was surely better than bloodthirsty battles?
Further along my path to enlightenment, I had yet another realisation that in going onto the self-created stage of daily life, maybe I wasn't being authentic and by putting on the "face paint", I was hiding the real me? Who was I presenting to the world? A ficticios creature some days for sure! ... So how could I expect to be appreciated for who I am when she was hiding behind the slap?
No wonder I was constantly misunderstood because I was presenting a face to everyone around me and not my authentic self. The perfect makeup, the perfect hair tonged and sprayed into place, the perfect clothes for the very imperfect me - I was constantly misunderstood because I felt anything but perfect, and some days, weeks, months and years, I was seriously tortured beneath the surface paint for one reason or another!
Today, I'm even further along my spiritual journey and for many months now, I wear the bare minimum of makeup that I'm comfortable with and I see it is as a form of creativity rather than a disguise or a mask to hide behind, or giving Mel Gibson a run for his money (think blue warpaint in Braveheart).
Instead, it has a beautiful positive vibe, like creating a new picture every day and having fun with different looks to reflect today's mood ... reflecting the real me.
As I'm writing this, I've had another ah ha moment about my concerns of any romantic partner eventually seeing me without eyeliner and concealer. They'll see the scars around my eyes from the umpteen operations I had as a child and my irregular eye shapes; they'll see the scars as a result of an epic horse riding accident (that no one but me notices) OMG, Shock horror!! ... and then I realised, how can they possibly begin to understand me if they never see me and understand where I've been? I have war wounds because I've lived! I dared to be true to my Border Reiver ancestry and charge around the countryside on horseback, and I allowed my Leo nature to take to front and centre instead of being an extra in the movie of life.
Today/ tomorrow is the Scorpio full moon. Allow egos, fears and excess emotions to release and replace with gratitude for the lesions of life (that typo had to stay as it was better than "lessons") and the fantastic journey on this beautiful planet. Jealous or resentful? Release and replace with the gratitude for being shown what you want in life and ask for the drive and motivation to achieve it for yourself.
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Animal healing came to me quite by accident about 20 years ago. I was already a Level 2 Reiki Practitioner and i was studying to be an Equine Massage Therapist. Whilst mucking out one of the horses at the stables I had a sudden vision of an incident in this horse's past which explained why he misbehaved in lessons in the ménage. He was in pain from a fall whilst being bullied into a horsebox and his neck clearly still troubled him especially when he was being told to go round in circles during lessons. This caused him extreme pain and brought back the trauma of that day, as well as adding to his anger at the way he'd been treated and that he was continuously misunderstood and punished for not doing as he was told.
I was so surprised at the horse communicating with me and this opened up an entirely new way of working to heal all sorts of animals. I found that I could tune in and then work to release physical, emotional and spiritual dis-ease. It gave an insight into a whole new dimension of the lives of our pets. Sometimes it broke my heart, other times i was able to direct the owners for the benefit of their animals' welfare. On one occasion my mother's cat showed me a vision of my mum dancing around her bedroom! Given that she has a terrible, chronic back pain this was quite a revelation. So i asked her "mum, do you dance around your bedroom?!?!" and she replied "yes! Sometimes when all the pain medication works and I'm feeling good, on that rare occasion I feel so happy that i dance ... And i dance down the hallway too!"
Well, i couldn't have imagined that so this gave me extra confidence which is key to believing your intuition.
I'd also noticed that during my equine massage case studies, my hands would get red hot as the horses intuitively drew Reiki from me. They would drop off to sleep, completely relaxed absolutely making the most of the massage and the Reiki healing. Other animals would put put their head into my hands if I was sat chatting to a friend and I would feel the healing energy flowing from me to them. This surprised quite a few friends as they hadn't seen their pet behave that way before.
One of my regular clients who owned a riding stables in East London, encouraged me to use all of my skills of Massage, Bach flower remedies, Reiki, The Balance Procedure and being able to tune into the horses. During my visits there she simply pointed me at which horses she wanted treating and left me and my intuition to it. The results were quite wonderful.
I have tuned into dogs, cats, horses and more recently a peacock!
Distance healing works superbly well with animals as I connect in using the Reiki distance healing symbol at a pre-appointed time and ask permission from the animal to conduct a healing session, just as I do as with humans. I work on each of their chakras which are responsible for the physical and emotional well-being of different aspects of the mind, body and spirit.
animals are generally more relaxed, less stressed and if they are in their twilight time, it eases the transition for them. Reiki can ease pain, it is known to boost the immune system and promotes healing of injuries and puts them back together again especially after an operation, trauma, accident or injury.
I share any insights that i get with the owner as this empowers their well-being.
So, if you'd like Reiki distance healing session for any of your animals, or indeed for yourself please get in touch as distance, social distancing, restrictions and geography don't matter.
My very special springtime offer is £20 / €22 and i also provide an email and recording with any insights that i get during the session.
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A dog is for life, not just for Christmas - right now that that is made clear, let's get on with the groovy reasons my dawg came into my world.
As you probably know, my ticker had a hissyfit 18 months ago and my robust physical strength evapourated overnight. I was no longer able to dance all night or heave straw and hay bales about like they were tissue boxes - I was left as weak as a kitten.
I had to start with being able to hang the washing out on the line without getting puffed out and feeling weak in my arms and dragging myself back to the sofa. Then after about six months I was able to go back to my regular yoga class and take it gently.
I think I was just getting strong again when we went into Lockdown in March and although I continued with yoga online and tried dancing around the house a bit, it wasn't cutting the mustard. I toyed with the idea of getting a dog but being a mad cat woman I dismissed it as a bad idea several times but the thought kept returning - "My Soul is trying to tell me something" I thought! "It's time to get cardiovascularly fit and strengthen my heart muscle!
I had a mad idea of getting a Dachshund as the ones in this YouTube video were just darling and made me laugh and laugh! But reality said no. A friend put a prospective female forward but nope, I just didn't feel a connection.
I met a puppy up for adoption at a local market where I was doing card readings - it was sooooo cute "is it naughty?" I asked ... "VERY" came back the answer. That was a NO then! So on the way home I thought to myself "if I'm going to attract the right companion, I have to create a tick list", so I did. I love Alsatians but he'd have to be a smaller one as my house isn't very big. Not a puppy, well behaved, doesn't chase chickens or cats and love me as unconditionally as I'll love him! My friend was at my place doing some sewing for me when I arrived back and I told her of the puppy .. "you after a dog then? I know one that needs a new home ... he's an alsatian but he's not very big" Wowsa! She took me to see him a day later and it was love at first sight. He put his paws on my shoulders and looked into my eyes and that was that!
Yes he pee'd in the house a few times, and no he didn't come back to me calling him for a few days but with the help of a few friends who are experienced with dogs we got over that REALLY quickly and now he's fab and getting fabbier by the day. He gets me out of the house and walking a good km twice a day and I'm discovering where it is that I've been living for nearly four years! The different sections of riverbeds that I've gazed down as I drive across, the mountain paths I didn't know were literally right on my doorstep, I'm being a part of nature as opposed to viewing it from a tin can with wheels. It's so lovely having a companion and protector.
The fitness aspect is just one of the bonuses he brings to my world as getting out there in the morning lifts my spirits and for a while I forget about the mad world! Of course, being the impatient sort that I am, I'm womdering why I'm not olympic-athlete-fit yet but I'm not starting at zero fitness am I, I'm in minus numbers and have to appreciate that. Great reminder to self in writing this! Thank you Universe for inspiring me to be a scribe this evening!
Cardiologists are obviously scary to me subconsciously and consciously as my heart seems to play up on review days, mainly because I so want to prove a point - that I'm doing really really well naturally - and it has really p*ssed me off because they must think I'm exaggerating or telling porkie pies. Don't get me wrong, there have been some marvellous Cardiology reviews where I've been called their Star patient and a "box of secrets" as they are confounded by my progress. On meditating about that I got the insight that despite me being an extremely honest person (brutally so at times), I have been disbelieved on many Many MANY occasions from the very start of my life, which was perplexing to me. I have no reason to lie, but I could deny being Chinese until I was blue in the face for the first 20 years of my life and point out that I had blonde hair and blue eyes but still just about every kid in school insisted that I was Chinese .... and then I was in sales - need I say more?!, and then I realised I was a Healer and in the late 1990's Reiki was not well known nor recognised. There were the psychic insights I'd get which people doubted accusing me of listening in their phone calls because how could i possibly know that?! ... well I just did and I didn't need to listen in on any phone calls! Then there were events in my life that made me doubt myself for waaay too long .... so all in all, yup, there's a belief I need to shift.
So Vagabond will empower me to believe in myself because I have to in order to direct him kindly and without barking orders at him (did ya like that pun?!) and I will show them that I can get my heart fit - I've confounded them before and I will again and I look forward to my morning walkies as much as he does because I'm a tenacious northern, horsey bird with viking and Border Reiver ancestory - watch this space! .... no, seriously, click on the link and watch ;-) Already I'm realising that there are many more reasons why the universe brought us together ... we have life lesdons to show each other and I'm really looking forward to seeing it all unfold.
Now I think i deserve a biscuit! hahaha! Chihuahua for now! (Ciao for those that didn't get it)
if you are intrigued by the spiritual aspects of this post, then you might like to check out my book "Wakey Wske-Up Rise & Shine" by me ... Linda Jane W, on Amazon ... https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B086G17C5F/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_fabt1_o1vWFb1M4C544
As mentioned in this fb live video, if you are a daily drinker, it is almost guaranteed that you will have candida overgrowth some of the symptoms of which include: Tired, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia,, bloating, constipation, diarrhoea, skin and nail fungal infections, thyroiditis, ulcderative colitis, psoriasis, RA, MS, difficulty concentrating, poor memory, ADHD, brain fog, rashes, eczema, irritability, mood swings, anxiety, depression, UTI's, vaginal / rectal itching, severe seasonal allergies, itchy ears, sugar / carbs cravings.
When you stop drinking, you starve this bacteria and it dies. This is called Candida die-off, the symptoms of which include: fever, chills, muscle aches, weakness, rapid heart rate, vasodilation, skin flushing, rash, reduced blood pressure. - As mentioned in this video, Activated charcoal is awsome to flush toxins out of the system but not at the same time of day as meds.
I became aware of all of this from personal experience about 7 years ago when I pressed the pause button on alcohol for a few years. After ten days I felt unwell and several weeks later I still felt lousy. I went on a Google quest and one page lead to another, which sparked a curiosity and lead to me another and I put the jigsaw together and realised I was in Candida die-off!
It's interesting to note that alcohol actually stresses your body so when you stop drinking, your body will be so much happier for it. Of course there may well be some growing pains so to speak, but stick with it because it is worth it I promise you.
I go into my detail in my book Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine which is available on Amazon and is by me, Linda Jane W.
About a year ago I was prescribed a drug to make my blood vessels more elastic and to strengthen them. This was following a heart attack and heart failure at the tender young age of 52 years old.
I've since been told by both my acupuncturist and my cardiologist that these heart events are highly likely to have been caused by my body's reaction to some sort of a systemic infection as I'm Zen hunny! I eat healthily, do yoga, Reiki and other forms of healing and holistic practices. Of course I'm the first to subscribe to the way of thinking that it was dis-ease of my emotions which was the forerunner to it all and the last year has been a fantastic adventure into those!
Once you've been put on to pharmaceuticals which were deemed essential following that near fatality, it's a scary thought coming off them.
They were indeed pretty essential as I now realise that the backs of both of my legs had tightened up months previous and I now know that I had other signs such as tight abdomen and solar plexus chakra, a rash and my hair and skin weren't as elastic. Where my legs met my torso was so tight it was painful. All I guess were signs that my circulatory vessels were struggling to function before and after the events.
However, I could not consider myself authentic and true to myself as a holistic practitioner, if I didn't convert to a natural alternative as soon as I felt it was safe to do so. I'm now at that point and have researched something called Rutin which is found in plants.
It naturally strengthens blood vessels including capillaries and arteries and makes them more flexible, thus reducing the pressure on the heart by easing circulation. This is a powerful antioxidant and helps the body is to use vitamin c. It helps with brain function is anti-inflammatory and may protect organs of the body and bones whereas the pharmaceuticals have side-effects which can damage organs.
So where can you find this little gem of nature?
Right here ...
It's good to know that we have a choice isn't it. Include these daily as prevention is definitely better than a cure ... take it from one who knows!
Of course I'd stress that this is a tough decision and I'd recommend that any changes that you want to make are done with your medic's cooperation.
I'd love to hear from you and of course my book is available on Amazon to give further insights and inspire you naturally.
I'm realising more by the day as I heal and release old ways. As I decide to react differently to recurring situations because if its returning I haven't got it right and learnt that lesson yet.
I find that as I contemplate why? What am I being shown? What do I need to change within myself?
The result is less stress, less anger, fewer frustrations and irritation is melting away.
Why did I bother to go down this path and release it all? Because I either take pharmaceuticals for the rest of my life because of my heart attack and heart failure to "cope" with life and suffer side-effects including possible severe damage to my organs ... or I change the way I look at life. Change what I attract, change the way I react and then I simply don't need to subdue my mind and my body's hormones.
Life becomes naturally less stressy and so my heart isn't under so much pressure and doesn't need medicating with betablockers. ... It had a hissyfit a year ago and then failed and with a heart function of 17% I wasn't expected to survive. I was discharged from hospital on 6 different medications. Before the whole heart thing I didn't even take painkillers! I was mortified and determined to find another way forward. I declined having my heart electrocuted as I figured I'd ignored her for long enough and it was time to listen, to hear what she was telling me.
It's not easy but to me side-effects are the body's way of stamping it's feet saying "you're not listening to me".
I use Bach flower remedies, The Balance Procedure, crystals, Reiki, meditation, I watch Gaia channel and YouTube. I observe, I take herbs and use foods instead of big pharma. I'm a work in progress and I'm delighted to be on this journey as I have an inquisitive mind.
Each to their own but I don't wish to be a worker bee any more. I've had my nose on the corporate grindstone for 37 years and it's my time now.
I'm not a sheeple type of person. I want to love, be loved, have fun, be creative, let the stuff that isn't me fall away. I don't drink alcohol any more and my psychic gifts are much stronger for it. I can feel the anxiety of social situations ... Or rather I could, as I don't need alcohol any more to loosen up and relax or to get on that dancefloor. I, we, you can do it naturally and feel liberated, free and in the groove with the music and the vibe.
I detail my journey in my book Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine ... available on Amazon. It's insightful, fun, jaw dropping and inspiring. Enjoy.
Until the heart attack last year I was a party girl, quaffing champagne and cava, enjoying a VAT or a vino and dancing and giggling along with everyone else in a squiffy haze.
Then boom, my lifestyle was turned upside down and I was banned from drinking by the cardiologist who said one drink could stop my heart and I'd literally drop dead.
I'd always bounced back from life's challenges with Tiggeresque vigor and this was no exception ... With alot of hard work I hasten to add.
I worked - and continue to work - on the emotional causes of my heart giving me that all mighty Wake-Up call and this blog is part of that emotional quarrying.
Whilst resolving to find and release the emotions, life's events keep setting off deep seated chain reactions that I don't expect.
Recently, I woke up to the fact that the dramas that I experienced as a result of alcohol have left me traumatised and I honestly didn't see that whilst I was part of the party.
This is no sob story, but rather a realisation that I wanted to share as I'm sure I'm not alone in this.
I believe that I've become more and more sensitive to negative vibrations as I'm no longer numbing my own mind, body or spirit with alcohol ... Which is a recognised sedative and painkiller.
My second ex-husband was an alcoholic and during our 15 years together, he gaslit me by lying to cover his tracks, which messed with my head. I was in a constant state of confusion for many years. His words didn't match his actions but he persisted with his lies and blatant disregard for my feelings to the point that I pretty much had a nervous breakdown as I was quite literally driven to distraction by the mixed signals and messages. When I gathered my strength I broke free and divorced him ... and then landed in a rather fun relationship with a fella who turned out to be bipolar.
Frying pan and fire spring to mind!
His mood swings were very evident with alcohol when he'd turn, telling me that he hated the sight of my face and couldn't stand to be in the same room as me. Then he'd plunge into depression as he felt physically ill until a few days later he'd be fun and affectionate until the next time.
I was no angel at times under the influence so I stopped drinking in disgust at myself as I'd snap and shout like a fishwife. Because I was now sober, I'd see why I had been snapping ... The verbal abuse, the ridiculous behaviour, the poor judgement calls, the aggression and I finally understood and forgave myself.
Over several relationships I have been hit over the head with a saucepan, dropped intentionally down the stairs, ordered out of my home in the middle of the night, been threatened, punched and been on the receiving end of drunken rants like you wouldn't believe. I'd had my kitchen window smashed, been pinned down and told I could be headbutted till I had no face left - and yet, being a strong Amazonian woman, the worst thing to me is to mess with my head. To be lied to and told that my intuition was wrong meant my radar needed recalibrating but after having a good rethink, is still be told that I was wrong with lies.
Trust is the solid foundation that all types of relationships are built on and without that you have nothing because it isn't real.
If there is a need to lie then someone is covering their tracks. They are showing a lack of respect, and are messing with another person's gut instincts ... Their intuition which guides them on their life path and tells them which situations are good and bad.
What of the odd white lie? The definition is a harmless or trivial lie, especially one told to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
... Not one to stop yourself getting into trouble.
And so, I've developed an aversion to alcohol and won't have it, or those under the influence in my house. Mi casa is my sanctuary, the place I run home to for safety and tranquility from the craziness. I literally panic or develop anxiety at the thought of being stuck in a social situation with over-squiffy people and need to have an escape plan. If I can't escape I I go into fight or flight mode.
I can actually feel the adrenaline in my body at the thought of anyone wobbling into my home drunk and kicking off.
That situation sets my heart beating fast and irregular and having had a heart attack and heart failure, I need to keep her as happy as possible so I have developed a zero tolerance for self preservation sake. Crazy considering that I was a very successful pub landlady for six and a half years and dealt with overly squiffy people everyday for most of that time. But I hadn't had a heart attack then!
... And I only realised that I have to work on releasing this, yesterday.
So the point is, trust your emotions and your gut. They are there to tell you if you're in the right place metophorically, physically and mentally and if you are anxious, get the hell out of that situation because if you accept it, you'll get more because The Universe will think that you like it and send you more.
Once again I thank the participants in the movie that is my life, for showing me the way regardless of their methodology. Life is a lesson. Learn and grow shiny happy people.
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It's becoming more and more clear to me that remedies - whether they be pharmaceuticals or natural herbs, tinctures, homeopathy etc - are there whilst we work on the emotional causes of our dis-ease which is manifesting in our bodies as an ailment.
The emotional work isn't an overnight process, it takes time to identify, unravel and release emotional energies from our vibration. It will have taken years for these emotions to build up to the point that they have so much energy that they can manifest into the physical reality of an ailment.
Whilst writing my book, "Wakey Wake-Up Rise and Shine" about my spiritual, emotional and physical journey post-heart attack and heart failure at the tender age of 52, I was using every holistic practice in my Spiritual toolbox. l also learnt more and recruited the wisdom and skills of other gifted healers.
This all worked fabulously well and supported my recovery in mega-fast time bringing my heart function up from 17% to 65% (normal) in just three months, but minor hiccups in my recovery made me aware that if natural remedies are needed and at all, then there was still an emotional imbalance to be worked on and lotions and potions weren't addressing those.
So, I reset my goal to negate my need for remedies full-stop. I resolved to heighten my awareness of what is within and what I needed to tweak about my perception of life, my responses, and ultimately what I attract into my world.
For example, recently in one week I was unjustly verbally attacked by a friend and then a few days later by another friend.
Initially I was so stunned and left reeling with upset that I didn't think beyond my own hurt and indignation.
Then I realised that it was the one year anniversaries of the heart attack and the few days later, heart failure. I thought there had to be a connection as I don't believe in coincidences.
I recruited the support of one of my spiritual gurus who pointed me in the right direction. The "attack" on my heart was especially alive in my vibration as it was in my thoughts this giving an "attack" the energy to come into reality. Each of my friends on the two separate occasions, had something alive within them that made them want to lash out at life and as I was unwittingly sending out "attack" vibes, I drew them straight to me and hey presto, verbal attacks.
Had I stopped at indignation and hurt I might never have made that connection and such attacks would surely keep reccuring - most likely transforming me into a hermit to avoid bewildering, future conflict.
Now I have something to work on with the law of attraction to clear old patterns. How very enlightening and liberating and I am determined to rid the need for any intervention!
Free yourselves ... Take what pills and potions you want to but please don't take the easy way out and think that's all you have to do. Your mission - should you choose to accept it - is to let go of the past and the negative effects that it has had on you, and instead attract love, beauty, fun, joy and shriek with delight as you ride the energy wave of life. 🌻
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I woke up this morning thinking suddenly my age is beginning to catch up with me and a few signs are beginning to show 🙀 ... Noooooooo!
Then I thought "F*cking Hurray Linda ... You nearly didn't make it this far! If you're aging then celebrate it and every single day that you wake up and age another day!" 🎊🎉🥳🎈
And that is my thought for today. Whoohoooo to the wisdom that my many years has brought me, yay to the knowledge that I've accrued over the years, high five to the mistakes I've made and won't repeat, Fecking Ace to the insights that I am blessed to have the space in my head to recieve, FANTASTIC that I can share all that I have gone through in a positive way to empower others to Wakey Wake-Up Rise and Shine, I'm amazed at how much I've learned over the years, I am excited about all that I will learn in the years to come.
There are soooo many wonderful things to experience, fabulous places to visit to nurture whatever flicks your switch, music to lighten your mood, colours to vibrate your mind into a state of joy, smells to make ya glad to be alive, sensations to stimulate or sedate, bring pleasure or deep relaxation. Taste the treasures of nature's bounty ... Be a Rock 'n' Roller and want (and enjoy) the f*cking lot! Be thankful for your wonderful body that enables you to experience all of this and be mindful enough to welcome it in and appreciate every morsel. We are Paradise when we allow it in.
Namaste shiny happy people 🌻✨💫🙏
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Linda Jane W has 20 years of experience as a Holistic Mentor, Psychic Healer, Card Reader & now Author.