Until the heart attack last year I was a party girl, quaffing champagne and cava, enjoying a VAT or a vino and dancing and giggling along with everyone else in a squiffy haze.
Then boom, my lifestyle was turned upside down and I was banned from drinking by the cardiologist who said one drink could stop my heart and I'd literally drop dead.
I'd always bounced back from life's challenges with Tiggeresque vigor and this was no exception ... With alot of hard work I hasten to add.
I worked - and continue to work - on the emotional causes of my heart giving me that all mighty Wake-Up call and this blog is part of that emotional quarrying.
Whilst resolving to find and release the emotions, life's events keep setting off deep seated chain reactions that I don't expect.
Recently, I woke up to the fact that the dramas that I experienced as a result of alcohol have left me traumatised and I honestly didn't see that whilst I was part of the party.
This is no sob story, but rather a realisation that I wanted to share as I'm sure I'm not alone in this.
I believe that I've become more and more sensitive to negative vibrations as I'm no longer numbing my own mind, body or spirit with alcohol ... Which is a recognised sedative and painkiller.
My second ex-husband was an alcoholic and during our 15 years together, he gaslit me by lying to cover his tracks, which messed with my head. I was in a constant state of confusion for many years. His words didn't match his actions but he persisted with his lies and blatant disregard for my feelings to the point that I pretty much had a nervous breakdown as I was quite literally driven to distraction by the mixed signals and messages. When I gathered my strength I broke free and divorced him ... and then landed in a rather fun relationship with a fella who turned out to be bipolar.
Frying pan and fire spring to mind!
His mood swings were very evident with alcohol when he'd turn, telling me that he hated the sight of my face and couldn't stand to be in the same room as me. Then he'd plunge into depression as he felt physically ill until a few days later he'd be fun and affectionate until the next time.
I was no angel at times under the influence so I stopped drinking in disgust at myself as I'd snap and shout like a fishwife. Because I was now sober, I'd see why I had been snapping ... The verbal abuse, the ridiculous behaviour, the poor judgement calls, the aggression and I finally understood and forgave myself.
Over several relationships I have been hit over the head with a saucepan, dropped intentionally down the stairs, ordered out of my home in the middle of the night, been threatened, punched and been on the receiving end of drunken rants like you wouldn't believe. I'd had my kitchen window smashed, been pinned down and told I could be headbutted till I had no face left - and yet, being a strong Amazonian woman, the worst thing to me is to mess with my head. To be lied to and told that my intuition was wrong meant my radar needed recalibrating but after having a good rethink, is still be told that I was wrong with lies.
Trust is the solid foundation that all types of relationships are built on and without that you have nothing because it isn't real.
If there is a need to lie then someone is covering their tracks. They are showing a lack of respect, and are messing with another person's gut instincts ... Their intuition which guides them on their life path and tells them which situations are good and bad.
What of the odd white lie? The definition is a harmless or trivial lie, especially one told to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
... Not one to stop yourself getting into trouble.
And so, I've developed an aversion to alcohol and won't have it, or those under the influence in my house. Mi casa is my sanctuary, the place I run home to for safety and tranquility from the craziness. I literally panic or develop anxiety at the thought of being stuck in a social situation with over-squiffy people and need to have an escape plan. If I can't escape I I go into fight or flight mode.
I can actually feel the adrenaline in my body at the thought of anyone wobbling into my home drunk and kicking off.
That situation sets my heart beating fast and irregular and having had a heart attack and heart failure, I need to keep her as happy as possible so I have developed a zero tolerance for self preservation sake. Crazy considering that I was a very successful pub landlady for six and a half years and dealt with overly squiffy people everyday for most of that time. But I hadn't had a heart attack then!
... And I only realised that I have to work on releasing this, yesterday.
So the point is, trust your emotions and your gut. They are there to tell you if you're in the right place metophorically, physically and mentally and if you are anxious, get the hell out of that situation because if you accept it, you'll get more because The Universe will think that you like it and send you more.
Once again I thank the participants in the movie that is my life, for showing me the way regardless of their methodology. Life is a lesson. Learn and grow shiny happy people.
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It's becoming more and more clear to me that remedies - whether they be pharmaceuticals or natural herbs, tinctures, homeopathy etc - are there whilst we work on the emotional causes of our dis-ease which is manifesting in our bodies as an ailment.
The emotional work isn't an overnight process, it takes time to identify, unravel and release emotional energies from our vibration. It will have taken years for these emotions to build up to the point that they have so much energy that they can manifest into the physical reality of an ailment.
Whilst writing my book, "Wakey Wake-Up Rise and Shine" about my spiritual, emotional and physical journey post-heart attack and heart failure at the tender age of 52, I was using every holistic practice in my Spiritual toolbox. l also learnt more and recruited the wisdom and skills of other gifted healers.
This all worked fabulously well and supported my recovery in mega-fast time bringing my heart function up from 17% to 65% (normal) in just three months, but minor hiccups in my recovery made me aware that if natural remedies are needed and at all, then there was still an emotional imbalance to be worked on and lotions and potions weren't addressing those.
So, I reset my goal to negate my need for remedies full-stop. I resolved to heighten my awareness of what is within and what I needed to tweak about my perception of life, my responses, and ultimately what I attract into my world.
For example, recently in one week I was unjustly verbally attacked by a friend and then a few days later by another friend.
Initially I was so stunned and left reeling with upset that I didn't think beyond my own hurt and indignation.
Then I realised that it was the one year anniversaries of the heart attack and the few days later, heart failure. I thought there had to be a connection as I don't believe in coincidences.
I recruited the support of one of my spiritual gurus who pointed me in the right direction. The "attack" on my heart was especially alive in my vibration as it was in my thoughts this giving an "attack" the energy to come into reality. Each of my friends on the two separate occasions, had something alive within them that made them want to lash out at life and as I was unwittingly sending out "attack" vibes, I drew them straight to me and hey presto, verbal attacks.
Had I stopped at indignation and hurt I might never have made that connection and such attacks would surely keep reccuring - most likely transforming me into a hermit to avoid bewildering, future conflict.
Now I have something to work on with the law of attraction to clear old patterns. How very enlightening and liberating and I am determined to rid the need for any intervention!
Free yourselves ... Take what pills and potions you want to but please don't take the easy way out and think that's all you have to do. Your mission - should you choose to accept it - is to let go of the past and the negative effects that it has had on you, and instead attract love, beauty, fun, joy and shriek with delight as you ride the energy wave of life. 🌻
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I woke up this morning thinking suddenly my age is beginning to catch up with me and a few signs are beginning to show 🙀 ... Noooooooo!
Then I thought "F*cking Hurray Linda ... You nearly didn't make it this far! If you're aging then celebrate it and every single day that you wake up and age another day!" 🎊🎉🥳🎈
And that is my thought for today. Whoohoooo to the wisdom that my many years has brought me, yay to the knowledge that I've accrued over the years, high five to the mistakes I've made and won't repeat, Fecking Ace to the insights that I am blessed to have the space in my head to recieve, FANTASTIC that I can share all that I have gone through in a positive way to empower others to Wakey Wake-Up Rise and Shine, I'm amazed at how much I've learned over the years, I am excited about all that I will learn in the years to come.
There are soooo many wonderful things to experience, fabulous places to visit to nurture whatever flicks your switch, music to lighten your mood, colours to vibrate your mind into a state of joy, smells to make ya glad to be alive, sensations to stimulate or sedate, bring pleasure or deep relaxation. Taste the treasures of nature's bounty ... Be a Rock 'n' Roller and want (and enjoy) the f*cking lot! Be thankful for your wonderful body that enables you to experience all of this and be mindful enough to welcome it in and appreciate every morsel. We are Paradise when we allow it in.
Namaste shiny happy people 🌻✨💫🙏
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I had an epiphany the other day about fear and the positive effect of the covid19 pandemic ... Yes positive!
I realised that because, at the outset of the pandemic, I consciously decided not to submit to fear over covid19 I have subconsciously reprogrammed myself out of peripheral fears I wasn't aware of.
Whilst maintaining a healthy respect for the situation, I have focused on giving my body the resources that it needs to retain a strong immune system and positive mindset, cultivating my reality of wellbeing, contentment and optimism.
When my heart failed exactly one year ago this week and I very nearly died twice within five days, I decided that rather than hand over responsibility to the medical profession for my life, my health and my recovery, I would embrace the opportunity to strut my stuff with my holistic practices. I resolved to work on myself using all of the skills, knowledge and wisdom that I had accrued over my fifteen years of being a Holistic Practitioner and Teacher and to listen to what my body was telling me that I needed to resolve emotionally. That in itself involved displacing fear of death – to me it simply wasn’t an option. The fear of not being authentic to myself overrode that completely and utterly.
Technically, because I have had heart dis-ease, I am considered high risk during these peculiar times but as I have learnt to listen to my intuition, my body and my emotions like never before, I have pushed fear to one side and this has had an unexpected knock-on effect across many areas of my life today.
I have always been and been known to be a fearless leo lioness, so I was taken aback when I realised that I even had fears to release - albeit relatively minor fears - but they were fears nevertheless.
One day I woke up and realised that in recent weeks I have acquired four chickens and a cockerel. I'd put that off for years for fear of not having a Scooby Doo (clue) what I was doing, reservations regarding time commitment, foxes, them disappearing into the countryside or vandalising my garden.
I have bought the garden chair swing where previously I had a fear of buying the wrong one, paying too much, logistical issues and more. All of which stopped me doing it in the past – crazy or what?!
I bought and erected a splosh pool on the mountainside in the olive grove that surrounds mi casa, where previously I was worried because i didn't know if it was ok to do so, should I - shouldn’t I?, olive leaves polluting it, my cats and wild animals taking an accidental plunge and drowning, if it'd puncture or should I use that much water? and what if it goes green?!
I've bought dreadlocks to go in my hair not knowing how long they'll last, if they're too heavy, if I'll like them, give wrong impressions, what colours to use.
I've got my Black & Decker drill out and put up that TV wall bracket all on my li’l old lonesome.
Successfully planted the veggie plot of broccoli, spinach, herbs, courgettes, cucumber, tomatoes, peas, mange toute, coriander where I previously thought that being pants with plants, they’d surely never survive – They’re thriving and fruiting right now!!! (next challenge is to keep the chickens off them haha).
I've experimented with many new recipes that I've previously avoided in case they didn't turn out right ... And many didn't but I'm still alive lol!
There are many more examples of how, by not submitting to fear, I have also released fear of failure that I didn't know that I had!
Sadly, on the flip side of the coin I have witnessed scared and obsessive people spiralling downwards into the depths of fear and anger and becoming more out of touch with their intuition and sense of self.
I am now shamelessly plugging the book that I wrote about my recovery with which I passionately aim to inspire all who read it, to take responsibility for your own wellbeing, how to do so and how to listen to your intuition. It is called “Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine” by Linda Jane W and is available on Amazon in both paperback and e-book. I’d never written a book before and I am also proud to say that I self-published it too – all of which was the most amazing, enlightening and magical journey all of its own. My recovery has been seriously hard work and a rollercoaster at times but today I am happier, healthier and more focused than I have been in decades despite a complete lifestyle overhaul.
From 8am on 29th May (the one year anniversary of me being rushed into hospital with a heart function of 17%), until midnight on Friday 5th June (the anniversary of the day after I was discharged and realised that this was far from over and this journey had only just begun), the e-book is less than half price at £3.99.
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Regardless of your political views, conspiracy, critical thinking, agreeing with what you see, and hear, sitting on the fence – it does not matter. What matters is that you recognise that you need to take responsibility for your own wellbeing because you and only you live in your body. These are unprecedented times and your best friend is your own intuition. Learn to listen to it as I have – Rise and Shine!
Stay positive, keep smiling, keep your immune system powering on all cylinders by minimising anger and stress – I truly hope that this blog has inspired you and that my book will inspire you all the more.
Namaste Shiny Happy People.
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Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine - By Linda Jane W
Good morning hunny. Happy Ostara 🐣🌻🌼🌷
I woke up with a need to share this with you.
You deserve the best. Don't settle for anything less.
Ostara is the pagan festival of rebirth and fertility known as Easter for most. It is no coincidence that it comes at soringtime when everything is bursting into life because this is the perfect time for new ideas and new starts. Often depicted as chicks hatching out from their life inside a shell to the wonders of this beautiful planet with all its love, fresh air, sights smells and fun on offer. Think of yourself as that chick this weekend and break free from the hard shell into your new world full of magic which is yours for the enjoying.
Work with the energy of spring which is an inspiring time of year. The only limits are in your mind. Lockdown across the globe is giving us each the time for reflection and to stop and think "what do I want from my life?" Indulge yourself with time to daydream about it because the more positive thoughts that you have, the more energy it has to come into reality.
The planetary alignments give us the extra momentum that we need to launch ourselves into the new life that we manifest with our thoughts.
Make it a fabulous one and metamorphasise into a fabulous butterfly beyond your wildest dreams! ✨🦋🌟🦋💥🦋💫
If you'd like to discuss the workshops that I offer to empower you along your journey, I welcome your message or call.
In the meantime, here is the link to my book "Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine" which is my story of how I transformed my life following a near fatal heart attack 10 months ago and turned it into a beautiful and positive experience.
And all that before my first coffee ☕😁😘p
I love this video because it gives some really easy techniques to relax your heart on a daily basis thus giving it a rest rather than continue to pound it with stress.
It's as simple as splashing your face with cold water, nasal breathing exercises, singing and dancing all of which stimulate the vagus nerve.
This is just one of the techniques that I recommend in my new book Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine, now available on Amazon by Linda Jane W.
This video is a fascinating watch and well worth 25 minutes of your time.
Enjoy Shiny Happy People 🌻
As I continue writing my book, Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine, I'm aware of the fact that my solar plexus (stomach) keeps tightening up. I initially thought that this was because I was digging deep into the causes of the heart incident to release the emotional cause and so I was bringing the past into my present.
Whilst writing and recalling past events, I realised that I've overcome so many challenging situations throughout my life and it started to make me wonder why I was attracting these and why my metal was repeatedly put to the test?
Indeed, at this moment in time, in addition to my book, I also have various other projects going on, and some of the incidents that have occurred have defied belief even for someone with my vivid imagination.
Being the stubborn Leo that I am, I do generally triumph after a battle of wits and I feel like Beowulf as I recite tales of daring do and how I battled with metaphorical monsters, but surely life doesn't have to be this challenging?
The answer came with the insights from other members of a healing circle that I take part in. It's a feeling of being unworthy which has so many roots in my past that I now take on a Hero archetype and set off on quest after quest to prove myself instead of quietly sitting at home and smelling the roses. It would seem that the downside of having hero tendencies, is that we think we're immortal and constantly push ourselves until The Universe reminds us otherwise - with a heart attack for instance!
I also wondered if this was my big Leo ego speaking and so I researched which chakra is responsible for the ego and guess which one it is - the solar plexus. And guess which chakra is associated with the star sign Leo - yes the solar plexus. And guess which chakra is associated with emotions - yes the solar plexus!
Life is truly one big jigsaw puzzle but now I think I'll focus my energies on one of my other, calmer archetypes and stop and smell the roses that are in bloom here in Andalucia at the moment. It's time to appreciate my worth and stop having to prove myself and in doing so I can let the monsters have a breather.
Namaste shiny happy people.
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THE RESULTS ARE IN!!!
The results are In! In my blog on 15th January (below) I described how I had just started an experiment to assess the effect of negative energy and thoughts on your body.
13 days later the results and the proof of the rice pudding really is in the eating but when you take a look at the photos below you probably won't feel like taking a spoon to it!
I was really surprised at the IGNORE rice which I expected to be pretty indifferent but if the colour is anything to go by, it would seem that even receiving negative hateful energy is better than being completely ignored!
So this begs the question what happens when you ignore your body's cry for change? Well here's the answer ... The IGNORE rice is what happens.
When you take a pill to suppress the symptoms, you are ignoring your body instead of listening to what it is telling you by presenting you with an ailment, illness or disease. These ailments are simply clues that there's a need for change.
It's important to include stress, depression and anxiety under "ailments" because of you're on the right track then life is a joy and none of these are prevalent in your mindset for long.
So what needs to change? Changing your lifestyle, your behavior, what you're putting into your body in terms of food, chemicals and liquids; what you're exposing yourself to energetically. What you do for a living, what you do with your time, changing your thoughts, changing the people you are surrounded by or your living circumstances.
Which one(s) apply? The answer is within you yourself.
These results have also made me take time to realise that if I ignore or neglect someone, the devastating effect that can have on them. I started to realise what was happening with the rice a few days ago and so I made a conscious effort to smile at elderly people as our paths crossed because one often hears of how invisible they feel as the hand of Father Time sweeps the years into an ever growing pile.
As for the HATE rice, as I've mentioned before, it's obvious to me that this is what happens to the cells in your body when you berate yourself or others do it for you. When you're exposed to anything other than love your body turns into mouldy furry rice!
Turn this around for a second and think what the effect is on someone else when you constantly disapprove of them, hit them with machine gun fire of anger or resentment and tell them they're not trying hard enough.
I feel that we have a responsibility not to expose ourselves or others to negativity. To some, their or our own idiosyncrasies aren't important so be around those people, people who like you for who you are ... Find your kind and that's what you receive... kindness ... Because you'll understand each other.
The LOVE rice speaks for itself doesn't it! How absolutely wonderful that as The Beatles sang all those years ago "All you need is love" - It really does make you SmileInside and out!
Peace of mind and love to you all.
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UPDATE to LOVE HATE IGNORE Rice experiment
I'm feeling really guilty about sending hateful vibes to the HATE rice. It feels awful, so much so that I feared it would affect the experiment ... solution = I blamed the rice for making me feel that way!!
Something else strange happened. I was struggling for hateful things to say when the archives of my mind opened up and I started reciting some of the things one of my long term lovers said to me frequently:
I don't like you, I don't love you, I don' t want you here in my space, my daughter doesn't like you, my friends don' t like you, I fell out of love with you and I've been using your body for sex for over 6 months, you're an inconvenience, you cramp my style.
Wow, no wonder I wasn't as healthy then as I am now post near fatal heart attack!!! ... I experienced years of this and my HATE rice will no doubt clearly show me what that negative energy did to my body let alone my mind and spirit .... watch this space!
But wow, did I ever Wakey Wake-Up, RISE & SHINE when I didn't allow him back into my life after the straw broke this camel's back.
Finally, be kind shiny happy people. Even if you feel that way, there is a much kinder approach out there on a need to know basis eh.
Sending love & Sparkles out there
The LOVE HATE IGNORE Rice Experiment
I'm writing a guidebook based on how I overcame the lifestyle and recovery challenges following a near fatal heart attack in May 2019 by using holistic practices. I needed a clear demonstration of the power of thoughts and words which are energy.
Linda Jane W has been a Holistic Practitioner and Tutor for over 15 years.