As I continue writing my book, Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine, I'm aware of the fact that my solar plexus (stomach) keeps tightening up. I initially thought that this was because I was digging deep into the causes of the heart incident to release the emotional cause and so I was bringing the past into my present.
Whilst writing and recalling past events, I realised that I've overcome so many challenging situations throughout my life and it started to make me wonder why I was attracting these and why my metal was repeatedly put to the test?
Indeed, at this moment in time, in addition to my book, I also have various other projects going on, and some of the incidents that have occurred have defied belief even for someone with my vivid imagination.
Being the stubborn Leo that I am, I do generally triumph after a battle of wits and I feel like Beowulf as I recite tales of daring do and how I battled with metaphorical monsters, but surely life doesn't have to be this challenging?
The answer came with the insights from other members of a healing circle that I take part in. It's a feeling of being unworthy which has so many roots in my past that I now take on a Hero archetype and set off on quest after quest to prove myself instead of quietly sitting at home and smelling the roses. It would seem that the downside of having hero tendencies, is that we think we're immortal and constantly push ourselves until The Universe reminds us otherwise - with a heart attack for instance!
I also wondered if this was my big Leo ego speaking and so I researched which chakra is responsible for the ego and guess which one it is - the solar plexus. And guess which chakra is associated with the star sign Leo - yes the solar plexus. And guess which chakra is associated with emotions - yes the solar plexus!
Life is truly one big jigsaw puzzle but now I think I'll focus my energies on one of my other, calmer archetypes and stop and smell the roses that are in bloom here in Andalucia at the moment. It's time to appreciate my worth and stop having to prove myself and in doing so I can let the monsters have a breather.
Namaste shiny happy people.
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Linda Jane W has been a Holistic Practitioner and Tutor for over 15 years.