I'm realising more by the day as I heal and release old ways. As I decide to react differently to recurring situations because if its returning I haven't got it right and learnt that lesson yet.
I find that as I contemplate why? What am I being shown? What do I need to change within myself?
The result is less stress, less anger, fewer frustrations and irritation is melting away.
Why did I bother to go down this path and release it all? Because I either take pharmaceuticals for the rest of my life because of my heart attack and heart failure to "cope" with life and suffer side-effects including possible severe damage to my organs ... or I change the way I look at life. Change what I attract, change the way I react and then I simply don't need to subdue my mind and my body's hormones.
Life becomes naturally less stressy and so my heart isn't under so much pressure and doesn't need medicating with betablockers. ... It had a hissyfit a year ago and then failed and with a heart function of 17% I wasn't expected to survive. I was discharged from hospital on 6 different medications. Before the whole heart thing I didn't even take painkillers! I was mortified and determined to find another way forward. I declined having my heart electrocuted as I figured I'd ignored her for long enough and it was time to listen, to hear what she was telling me.
It's not easy but to me side-effects are the body's way of stamping it's feet saying "you're not listening to me".
I use Bach flower remedies, The Balance Procedure, crystals, Reiki, meditation, I watch Gaia channel and YouTube. I observe, I take herbs and use foods instead of big pharma. I'm a work in progress and I'm delighted to be on this journey as I have an inquisitive mind.
Each to their own but I don't wish to be a worker bee any more. I've had my nose on the corporate grindstone for 37 years and it's my time now.
I'm not a sheeple type of person. I want to love, be loved, have fun, be creative, let the stuff that isn't me fall away. I don't drink alcohol any more and my psychic gifts are much stronger for it. I can feel the anxiety of social situations ... Or rather I could, as I don't need alcohol any more to loosen up and relax or to get on that dancefloor. I, we, you can do it naturally and feel liberated, free and in the groove with the music and the vibe.
I detail my journey in my book Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine ... available on Amazon. It's insightful, fun, jaw dropping and inspiring. Enjoy.
Linda Jane W has been a Holistic Practitioner and Tutor for over 15 years.