Fear / No Fear - I wasn't expecting that!

I had an epiphany the other day about fear and the positive effect of the covid19 pandemic ... Yes positive! 
I realised that because, at the outset of the pandemic, I consciously decided not to submit to fear over covid19 I have subconsciously reprogrammed myself out of peripheral fears I wasn't aware of. 
Whilst maintaining a healthy respect for the situation, I have focused on giving my body the resources that it needs to retain a strong immune system and positive mindset, cultivating my reality of wellbeing, contentment and optimism. 
When my heart failed exactly one year ago this week and I very nearly died twice within five days, I decided that rather than hand over responsibility to the medical profession for my life, my health and my recovery, I would embrace the opportunity to strut my stuff with my holistic practices.  I resolved to work on myself using all of the skills, knowledge and wisdom that I had accrued over my fifteen years of being a Holistic Practitioner and Teacher and to listen to what my body was telling me that I needed to resolve emotionally.  That in itself involved displacing fear of death – to me it simply wasn’t an option.  The fear of not being authentic to myself overrode that completely and utterly. 
Technically, because I have had heart dis-ease, I am considered high risk during these peculiar times but as I have learnt to listen to my intuition, my body and my emotions like never before, I have pushed fear to one side and this has had an unexpected knock-on effect across many areas of my life today. 
I have always been and been known to be a fearless leo lioness, so I was taken aback when I realised that I even had fears to release - albeit relatively minor fears - but they were fears nevertheless.   
One day I woke up and realised that in recent weeks I have acquired four chickens and a cockerel.  I'd put that off for years for fear of not having a Scooby Doo (clue) what I was doing, reservations regarding time commitment, foxes, them disappearing into the countryside or vandalising my garden.   
I have bought the garden chair swing where previously I had a fear of buying the wrong one, paying too much, logistical issues and more. All of which stopped me doing it in the past – crazy or what?!  
I bought and erected a splosh pool on the mountainside in the olive grove that surrounds mi casa, where previously I was worried because i didn't know if it was ok to do so, should I  - shouldn’t I?, olive leaves polluting it, my cats and wild animals taking an accidental plunge and drowning, if it'd puncture or should I use that much water?  and what if it goes green?! 
I've bought dreadlocks to go in my hair not knowing how long they'll last, if they're too heavy, if I'll like them, give wrong impressions, what colours to use. 
I've got my Black & Decker drill out and put up that TV wall bracket all on my li’l old lonesome. 
Successfully planted the veggie plot of broccoli, spinach, herbs, courgettes, cucumber, tomatoes, peas, mange toute, coriander where I previously thought that being pants with plants, they’d surely never survive – They’re thriving and fruiting right now!!! (next challenge is to keep the chickens off them haha). 
I've experimented with many new recipes that I've previously avoided in case they didn't turn out right ... And many didn't but I'm still alive lol! 
There are many more examples of how, by not submitting to fear, I have also released fear of failure that I didn't know that I had!   
Sadly, on the flip side of the coin I have witnessed scared and obsessive people spiralling downwards into the depths of fear and anger and becoming more out of touch with their intuition and sense of self. 
I am now shamelessly plugging the book that I wrote about my recovery with which I passionately aim to inspire all who read it, to take responsibility for your own wellbeing, how to do so and how to listen to your intuition.  It is called “Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine” by Linda Jane W and is available on Amazon in both paperback and e-book.  I’d never written a book before and I am also proud to say that I self-published it too – all of which was the most amazing, enlightening and magical journey all of its own.  My recovery has been seriously hard work and a rollercoaster at times but today I am happier, healthier and more focused than I have been in decades despite a complete lifestyle overhaul. 
From 8am on 29th May (the one year anniversary of me being rushed into hospital with a heart function of 17%), until midnight on Friday 5th June (the anniversary of the day after I was discharged and realised that this was far from over and this journey had only just begun), the e-book is less than half price at £3.99. 
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Regardless of your political views, conspiracy, critical thinking, agreeing with what you see, and hear, sitting on the fence – it does not matter.  What matters is that you recognise that you need to take responsibility for your own wellbeing because you and only you live in your body.  These are unprecedented times and your best friend is your own intuition.  Learn to listen to it as I have – Rise and Shine!  
Stay positive, keep smiling, keep your immune system powering on all cylinders by minimising anger and stress – I truly hope that this blog has inspired you and that my book will inspire you all the more. 
Namaste Shiny Happy People. 
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Wakey Wake-Up Rise & Shine - By Linda Jane W